me internally: you know everything would be so much better if I were thin.
F on a major test? who cares I’m thin.
Parents got divorced? oh well, at least I’m skinny.
Boyfriend broke up with me? Well I’m still skinny.
Someone called me ugly? Yeah but they can’t call me fat though.
Me.. I used this back when my ed was really bad and my boyfriend broke up with me. It fucking worked, I didn’t care but then I did lose another 20+ pounds 😂
Me: “Jesus Christ I’m fat.”
*Looks through thinspo, sees someone the same size as me that’s rly thin and perfect????*
Me: “Well maybe I am thin idk my body is the same as hers and all,”
Dysmorphia: “Okay but consider this,,, you’re delusional from all the fat :)”
to the bone: ho don’t do it
me: goals!!!!! #thinspo
i know i shouldn’t compare myself to the girls i reblog, because most of them are unhealthily thin, but i can’t help it. but i don’t think i even look healthy skinny. i don’t think i look skinny at all. all i see is fat and chubby. i think that’s all i am
Until my boyfriend actually worries about me instead of encourages me,
Until my friends and family notice just how much weight I’ve really lost,
Until none of my clothes fit and I’m forced to buy a whole new wardrobe,
Until my stomach is flat, my waist tiny, my fingers dainty,
Until I’m someone’s thinspo or body goals,
Until they say “You’re so skinny!” instead of “You’re not fat”,
Until they ask, “What’s your secret?”
Until they ask, “Do you even eat?”
Until I’m dead.
Until my boyfriend actually worries about me instead of encourages me,
Until my friends and family notice just how much weight I’ve really lost,
Until none of my clothes fit and I’m forced to buy a whole new wardrobe,
Until my stomach is flat, my waist tiny, my fingers dainty,
Until I’m someone’s thinspo or body goals,
Until they say “You’re so skinny!” instead of “You’re not fat”,
Until they ask, “What’s your secret?”
Until they ask, “Do you even eat?”
Until I’m dead.
It went from “I want to get fit and toned,” to “I want to be thin,” to “I want to be so skinny that my bones stick out and people wonder if I ever eat.”
“You’re so skinny!” instead of “you’re not fat.”
fucking t h i s.
